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Although, the male andropause has not been widely recognized, increased medical research has turned attention to the gradual hormone decline in males which generally presents with symptoms in the mid 40’s to 50’s. A recent World Health Organization (WHO) report, states that the male hormone, testosterone, drops about 10 percent every decade starting around age 30. It is estimated that by age 50, 30 percent of men have testosterone levels low enough to cause symptoms and put them at risk.
Hormonal decline is not limited to just testosterone. Other natural hormonal levels can be deficient in Andropause. These hormones can include Human Growth Hormone (HGH or IGF-1), DHEA, thyroid hormone, melatonin and others. Although, declining hormones are a normal part of aging, they are accompanied by a gradual and undesired decline in sexuality, mood and overall energy. Declining hormones also increase the risk of more serious medical conditions (such as cardiovascular disease and osteoporosis). Similar to Menopause in women, Andropause in males begins at a time when life often offers some of its greatest rewards.
What are the symptoms?
By the time men are between the ages of 40 and 55, the drop in hormone levels gradually (unlike the sudden changes in menopause) produce changes in attitude, mood, confidence, memory, energy level, sex drive, muscle tone, muscle mass, muscle strength, abdominal fat and physical agility. Psychological stress, alcohol, injuries, surgery, medications, and obesity can contribute to its onset.
More over, studies show that a decline in testosterone and growth hormone actually contributes to the risk of health problems like heart disease, osteoporosis and weak muscles leading to fraility. Since all this happens at a time of life when many men begin to question their values, accomplishments and direction in life, it’s often not recognized that the changes are related to a silent decline in hormones.
What are the risks of hormone deficiencies?
Since all cells in the body have receptors for hormones, declining hormones are a major contributor to deterioration of the brain, muscle, skin, bone, joints, vessels, heart and the quality of life. Each hormone has specific roles in the normal bodily functions. Specifically, testosterone builds protein and is essential for normal sexual behavior and producing erections. Additionally, each hormone affects numerous metabolic activities such as the production of blood cells in the bone marrow, bone formation, lipid metabolism, carbohydrate metabolism, liver function, brain function, prostate gland growth. Therefore, in addition to the symptoms described, declining hormones increase the risk of deterioration of organs , osteoporosis and cardiovascular disease.
Andropause and Osteoporosis Osteoporosis is not just a disease of women. In men, lifestyle, nutrition and hormones such as testosterone and growth hormone play critical roles in the maintenance of bones. As these decline, between the ages of 40 and 70 years, male bone density falls by up to 15 percent. What’s more, approximately one in eight men over age 50 actually have osteoporosis, increasing fractures of the hip, wrist and spine. Therefore, the incidence of hip fractures rises exponentially in ageing men, as it does in women, but starting about 5 to 10 years later.. After a hip fracture, up to one third of patients never regain full mobility.
Andropause and Cardiovascular risk It is now well accepted that women’s risk of atherosclerosis (hardening of the arteries) and cardiac events increases after menopause. New evidence suggests that a similar phenomenon occurs in men as their testosterone levels diminish with age. Research thus far point to a strong association between low-testosterone levels and an increase in cardiovascular risk in men.
How do you know if you are in Andropause?
Although, Andropause was first described in medical literature in the 1940′s, it is generally under diagnosed and under treated since sensitive tests are new. Under diagnosis is also due to often vague symptoms which can vary a lot among individuals. Some men find it difficult to admit that there’s even a problem. And often physicians do not think of low hormone levels as a possible culprit, attributing symptoms to medical conditions and normal aging.
Accurate diagnosis and treatment requires a thorough clinical history, physical evaluation and lab work to measure hormone levels.
How do you treat Andropause ?
Of course, any strategy to reduce the symptoms and risks of Andropause should be based on lifestyle approaches such as optimal diet, regular exercise, nutritional replacement, stress-management and the reduction of tobacco and alcohol intake. These critical factors affect hormone levels and effects.
Additionally, hormone replacement (i.e. testosterone, growth hormone, thyroid hormone, melatonin) should be considered for those who are experiencing clinical symptoms of hormone deficiency. No patient is too old to start hormone replacement therapy if it is indicated. As for any medication, hormones should be taken under a physician’s care, with appropriate follow-up evaluations. They are dispensed by injection, creams, gels, patches and oral capsules. If you have an established prostate tumor or breast cancer you would not be a suitable candidate for testosterone replacement therapy.
What is the role of Viagra/ Cialis in Andropause?
Testosterone replacement therapy works differently from Viagra or Cialis, which act on the penis only to maintain an erection. Testosterone works on the whole body, brain and all aspects of the sexual response including erectile quality and sexual desire.
What are the benefits of hormone replacement?
Clinical studies support the use of exercise, nutritional replacement, testosterone and growth hormone to treat the symptoms and prevent disease. Hormone replacement with testosterone and growth hormone has been shown to significantly improve sexual performance, libido, energy, mood, memory, brain function, heart disease, vessel disease, muscle strength, muscle tone, muscle mass, abdominal fat, bone density and overall sense of well-being. These effects are usually noted within just a few weeks.
What are the risks of hormone replacement?
A recent 2004 study in the New England Journal of Medicine concluded that there were no long term risks of replacement therapy which aims to restore normal hormone levels. Historically, testosterone use has been associated with aggression and hypersexuality. These effects stem from the use of testosterone by men with normal testosterone levels who took testosterone at doses which were much higher than supplementation doses that are used in men going through Andropause.
In conclusion, correction of nutritional and hormonal deficiencies is important for the treatment of andropause symptoms and the prevention of degenerative diseases such as osteoporosis and cardiovascular disease.
Testosterone improves cognitive function, memory. Alzheimer’s ( Aging Male 2003, J Clin Metab 2002, J Clin Endocrin 1999)
T protects against atherosclerosis and plaque rupture. J Endocrin 2003, J CLin Endocrin 1999
GH protects against beta-amyloid plaques. J Neuroscience 2001
Testosterone protects against CV disease. NEJM 2004
Testosterone improves mood and erections. Androl 1992
Testosterone improves depression. Am J Psychiatry 2003
Testosterone reduces angina Circulation 2000, reduces atherosclerosis. J Endocrin2003.
Testosterone improves CHF. Heart 2003
Testosterone improves strength and body composition. Mayo Clin Proc 200
Testosterone improves DM. Aging Male 2003
Testosterone increase coronary blood flow circulation 1999
GH increases bone density
GH decreases abdominal obesity in men
GH decreases fatigue
Increases energy, vitality, well being, self control decreases anxiety, depression
No evidence of increased cancer or CV disease. NEJM 2004
Body composition improves with GH.
- Improvement in mood and sense of well-being
- Increased mental and physical energy
- Decreased anger, irritability, sadness, tiredness, nervousness
- Improved quality of sleep
- Improved libido and sexual performance
- An increase in lean body mass, a decline in fat mass
- An increase in muscle strength (hand grip, upper and lower extremities)
- Potentially, a decrease in the risk of heart disease
There are several conditions in which you should never use testosterone replacement therapy. These include:
- Breast cancer (in males)
- Prostate cancer
In some other cases testosterone replacement therapy may not be right for you. If one of the conditions below is applicable to you, your doctor will decide whether (in your specific case) testosterone replacement therapy is the right solution.
- Liver disease
- Heart or blood vessel disease
- Edema (swelling of face, hands, feet, or lower legs)
- Enlarged prostate
- Kidney disease
- Diabetes mellitus
To help your doctor determine your best treatment plan, you should also discuss the following:
- If you have ever had any unusual or allergic reaction to androgens or anabolic steroids.
- If you are an adult male who plans to have children; high doses of androgens may cause infertility.
- If you are bedridden.
- If you are now taking any other prescription or nonprescription (OTC) medicine, especially anticoagulants (blood thinners).
Treatment for Andropause consists of replacing lost hormones with natural hormones that are molecularly equal or bio-identical to those produced naturally within the body. By choosing hormones from sources that are bio-identical to our own bodies naturally produced hormones, one can receive the optimal benefits of therapy while reducing the risks associated with chemical agents.
Happy Earth Day… The impact of that first Earth Day has been profound. The nation’s air and water have become dramatically cleaner, and lead has disappeared from gasoline while the economy has more than doubled in size. Really, it all began in 1970 with Earth Day, and the ability to have a grassroots movement that demanded that we keep people safe while we continue to grow the economy. We need to hear more voices from minority and low-income communities, which are disproportionately affected by environmental hazards because this is an issue where we need everybody to speak up.
What is Earth Day? Earth Day is an annual event, celebrated on April 22, on which events are held worldwide to demonstrate support for environmental protection. It was first celebrated in 1970, and is now coordinated globally by the Earth Day Network, and celebrated in more than 192 countries each year.
In 1969 at a UNESCO Conference in San Francisco, peace activist John McConnell proposed a day to honor the Earth and the concept of peace, to first be celebrated on March 21, 1970, the first day of spring in the northern hemisphere. This day of nature’s equipoise was later sanctioned in a Proclamation written by McConnell and signed by Secretary General U Thant at the United Nations. A month later a separate Earth Day was founded by United States Senator Gaylord Nelson as an environmental teach-in first held on April 22, 1970. Nelson was later awarded the Presidential Medal of Freedom Award in recognition of his work. While this April 22 Earth Day was focused on the United States, an organization launched by Denis Hayes, who was the original national coordinator in 1970, took it international in 1990 and organized events in 141 nations. Numerous communities celebrate Earth Week, an entire week of activities focused on environmental issues.
Results of Earth Day 1970
The first Earth Day family had participants and celebrants in two thousand colleges and universities, roughly ten thousand primary and secondary schools, and hundreds of communities across the United States. More importantly, it “brought 20 million Americans out into the spring sunshine for peaceful demonstrations in favor of environmental reform.” It now is observed in 192 countries, and coordinated by the nonprofit Earth Day Network, chaired by the first Earth Day 1970 organizer Denis Hayes, according to whom Earth Day is now “the largest secular holiday in the world, celebrated by more than a billion people every year.” Environmental groups have sought to make Earth Day into a day of action which changes human behavior and provokes policy changes.
19 years later residents remember the Oklahoma City bombing… Nineteen years ago today, a bomb ripped through a federal building in Oklahoma City, Oklahoma, in the worst homegrown terrorist attack on U.S. soil, the attack killed 168 people, shattering the notion that America was largely immune to domestic terrorism. Father forgive them for they know not what they do, please join me in prayer…
Father I come before you today in humble gratitude for sacrificing your son to wash away our sins while teaching us to forgive those that are hardest to forgive and love because we know they are the ones who need it most as you recognize this in us. Father I thank you for sending your son to set the example that we may live by example rather than lead by ignorance, thank you for the challenges presented before us teaching us to appreciate the blessings that come from these tragic events. Thank you for placing angels among us disguised to test our character and father please direct us that we may each continue to search for new ways to be a pleasure in your eyes that you may continue to bless us embraced in your loving grace through the everlasting love of Jesus Christ with the power of the Holy Ghost. Father I pray forgiveness that you may welcome those that have not accepted Christ before their passing into your kingdom even if this means I must take their place and even if it means I stand alone. Amen.
Which way is the dancer spinning… clockwise or counter-clockwise?
When you are in control of your emotions you are in control of your future.
Most people will see her turning counter-clockwise, which apparently means you’re more left brained (logical). I see her spinning that way, and it’s at first almost impossible to imagine her going clockwise. But it happens, usually by focusing or when something unexpectedly alters your perception.
Here’s the typical run down on left versus right brain:
LEFT BRAIN FUNCTIONS
words and language
present and past
math and science
knows object name
RIGHT BRAIN FUNCTIONS
“big picture” oriented
symbols and images
present and future
philosophy & religion
can “get it” (i.e. meaning)
knows object function
Many people associate the right brain with creativity and lateral thinking, and there’s certainly something to that. Our left brains create structures that can act as barriersto alternative solutions and perspectives.
But your left brain plays a crucial role in creativity as well. Seeing logical associations between seemingly unrelated things is a hallmark of creativity. And the critical-thinking skills necessary to tell a good idea from a bad one are pretty important too.
So… tell us which way your dancer spins for you in the comments. And weigh in with your opinion about the right brain versus left brain for creativity… isn’t it a really a “whole mind” thing?
What is St. Patrick’s Day? March 17th is the traditional day for offering prayers for missionaries worldwide.
Saint Patrick is the patron saint and national apostle of Ireland. St Patrick is credited with bringing Christianity to Ireland. Most of what is known about him comes from his two works; the Confessio, a spiritual autobiography, and his Epistola, a denunciation of British mistreatment of Irish Christians. Saint Patrick described himself as a “most humble-minded man, pouring forth a continuous paean of thanks to his Maker for having chosen him as the instrument whereby multitudes who had worshipped idols and unclean things had become the people of God.”
Many folk ask the question ‘Why is the Shamrock the National Flower of Ireland?’ The reason is that St. Patrick used it to explain the Holy Trinity to the pagans. Saint Patrick is believed to have been born in the late fourth century, and is often confused with Palladius, a bishop who was sent by Pope Celestine in 431 to be the first bishop to the Irish believers in Christ.
Saint Patrick is most known for driving the snakes from Ireland. It is true there are no snakes in Ireland, but there probably never have been – the island was separated from the rest of the continent at the end of the Ice Age. As in many old pagan religions, serpent symbols were common and often worshipped. Driving the snakes from Ireland was probably symbolic of putting an end to that pagan practice. While not the first to bring Christianity to Ireland, it is Patrick who is said to have encountered the Druids at Tara and abolished their pagan rites. The story holds that he converted the warrior chiefs and princes, baptizing them and thousands of their subjects in the “Holy Wells” that still bear this name.
There are several accounts of Saint Patrick’s death. One says that Patrick died at Saul, Downpatrick, Ireland, on March 17, 460 A.D. His jawbone was preserved in a silver shrine and was often requested in times of childbirth, epileptic fits, and as a preservative against the “evil eye.” Another account says that St. Patrick ended his days at Glastonbury, England and was buried there. The Chapel of St. Patrick still exists as part of Glastonbury Abbey. Today, many Catholic places of worship all around the world are named after St. Patrick, including cathedrals in New York and Dublin city
Saint Patrick’s Day has come to be associated with everything Irish: anything green and gold, shamrocks and luck. Most importantly, to those who celebrate its intended meaning, St. Patrick’s Day is a traditional day for spiritual renewal and offering prayers for missionaries worldwide.
So, why is it celebrated on March 17th? One theory is that that is the day that St. Patrick died. Since the holiday began in Ireland, it is believed that as the Irish spread out around the world, they took with them their history and celebrations. The biggest observance of all is, of course, in Ireland. With the exception of restaurants and pubs, almost all businesses close on March 17th. Being a religious holiday as well, many Irish attend mass, where March 17th is the traditional day for offering prayers for missionaries worldwide before the serious celebrating begins.
In American cities with a large Irish population, St. Patrick’s Day is a very big deal. Big cities and small towns alike celebrate with parades, “wearing of the green,” music and songs, Irish food and drink, and activities for kids such as crafts, coloring and games. Some communities even go so far as to dye rivers or streams green!
Saint Patrick, the Apostle of Ireland
THE STAINED GLASS IMAGE OF ST PATRICK HAILS FROM CABINTEELY CHURCH, DUBLIN
My name is ______________ and because you love me and want me to express all of the rainbows of emotions that make me your unique design I thank you.
To begin your Journey in your relationship with God whether you are already saved or just need to rededicate your life, your heart and your soul You can pray something like this:
“God, thank You for loving me. I believe that Your Son, Jesus, died to pay for my sins because of Your great love for me. I believe you raised Jesus from the dead. I now put my trust only in Jesus to love me and forgive me for my sins. Help me put Jesus first. Thank you for our new relationship and the gift of eternal life. Amen.”
This Journal is for you to write your letters to God, to share your thoughts, feelings and opinions as you grow your faith and strengthen your relationship with God for the rest of the days of your life. It is to express love, anger and all of the rainbows of emotions for God wants and loves everything that makes up the magnificent person you are.
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If the “Greats” of the Business World Endorse Network Marketing as the Business Vehicle of Choice, the question is no longer what kind of business but rather which Network Marketing Company to choose?
Network Marketing is a proven business plan for the average person to achieve financial and time freedom regardless of race, education, age, sex, or religion. It is the great equalizer in the world of business. Anyone, anywhere, at anytime, can begin to build and secure their future simply by making the choice to begin their own home-based network marketing business.
Once you’ve made that decision the next decision can either be the hardest or the easiest decision…which network marketing business to choose?
There are five key things to look at when reviewing any business.
It is of utmost importance to pick a company that offers products/technologies no other company offers, with incredible support and education along with a cohesive and powerful team and a compensation plan that rewards you for your work, not just now but far into the future.
Let’s take a look at the 5 key components of any successful business one by one.
The Trend is Your Friend.
A trend is anywhere money is flowing in the economy, not just for a few years, but for decades. The longest and fastest growing trend is anti-aging, both on the inside and the outside. Not only are baby boomers demanding products/services and technologies that make them look younger and feel better longer, those in their 20′s – 40′s are demanding the same products. This is a very unique time in history. The time where several generations and demographics all share the same desire; to maintain or regain their youth.
Nuskin Enterprises is the only Genetic based Anti-aging Company in the world! We have been named the #1 anti-aging company in the world and “the apple of anti-aging”. When you consider what the company Apple represents in the market place, this is a very coveted label that Nu Skin has earned by some of the top watchdogs in the industry.
2. Exclusive, Unique, Products With Science to Validate Their Efficacy and Safety.
If you are going to stand out in the over-crowded industry of anti-aging you better have some pretty unique AND patented products/technologies that are backed by proven science, not only by the company itself but approved and applauded by the science community world-wide. This perfectly describes Nu Skin’s platform of genetic-based anti-aging product offerings.
30+ years of proven science, not only our 75+ in-house scientists, but also those who have partnered with Nu Skin, is our strongest advantage over all the other anti-aging companies in the industry. No other company can boast of this one, among many, of our unique positioning in the market-place.
The science that separates Nu Skin from the entire anti-aging offerings in the marketplace is our ageLoc science. It is the science of reversing and locking in our youthful age once it is reset. Nu Skin owns the company that is responsible for 30+ years of research in genetics and aging. Each product that has the ageLoc science used as the base for the product itself will reset the youthful expression of the genes responsible for that particular area of the body. To date, ageLoc has been used for several skincare products, one internal product and one weight loss product. There is a roll-out of at least 10 years of existing and new products that will have the ageLoc science applied to their (re)creation.
3. The Company
The company you choose needs a foundation of stability built on strong ethical and business principles that have stood the test of time, the changes in the economy, and heavy competition. Considering that 99% of start-up network marketing companies fail within the first 5 years, a start-up company is not the place to hang your hat and build your future. Nu Skin has a 30 year history of continued growth with year after year record growth since 2007. The share price has risen from $7/share in August 2009 to almost $130/share in November, 2013. Wall Street is convinced of Nu Skin’s security and strength and so can you.
4. The Compensation Plan
Even with all the differentiated products and the science to back them and the strength and stability of the company, the number 1 reason people join a Network Marketing Company is to make more money. Nu Skin knows this and their mission is to “pay their distributors more commissions than any other publicly traded direct sales company” and they have kept their word. There is a new person that reaches the million dollar mark in accumulated commissions every 4 days. To think that Nu Skin creates a new millionaire every day is very exciting for the average person looking to make an additional $500 – $1000/month (the average expectation at the beginning of a part-time home-based business). Your options are unlimited and your earning potential is completely up to you.
5. The Timing…For the Company and For You
The anti-aging market is expected to continue to rise in demand by all demographics 20 and older. The NYSE has been a public example of the growth of that demand and Nu Skin’s ability to not only meet that demand but to become the world leader in exceeding people’s expectations in regards to product results and price.
The question is…is the timing right for you? Are you sick and tired of being sick and tired? Are you ready to make a change for the better in your life and move toward financial and time freedom? Are you ready to work hard once and get paid for a lifetime…and then to will your future earnings to whomever you choose?
Tonight I come before you to join me in prayer, Father thank you for blessing me so abundantly in your grace, for embracing me in your faithful and everlasting love. Thank you for the blessings you continue to place before me so abundantly, thank you for opening my heart to recognize the blessings within the challenges. Thank you for accepting my soul as a work in progress always shaping and molding me into your design. Thank you for always believing in me, thank you for strengthening me through vulnerability to breakthrough the chains of bondage we know as our imperfections to breakthrough to live by example rather than to lead by ignorance. Thank you that my life and circumstances are God’s perfect design as my every decision is of God, by God and for God first, last and always. I pray gratitude for blessing everyone on their journey with protection, prosperity and well being. I thank you for that each of us are chosen for a unique purpose to share God’s word of love, life, and fulfillment. I pray this in the name of Jesus Christ as I thank you most of all for sacrificing your only son to shed his blood of forgiveness through our veins that we may live in gratitude as forgiveness is the debt he paid that we may know freedom and everlasting life. I pray father forgive them for they know not what they do, please have mercy on the souls that have passed without accepting Christ that they may be received and welcomed into heaven even if this means I take their place. Thank you for the courage to stand even if it means I stand alone, I pray gratitude for God’s grace with the power vested in me through the Holy Ghost, through the everlasting love of Christ embraced in God’s blessing and amazing grace, I am deeply humbled in gratitude, fueled by faith driven by God. Amen.
SCAM ALERT: This one is pretty slick and is the latest scam dealing primarily with VISA and Master Card fraud. It is slick because they provide you with all the information except the one piece that they really want.
It is worth reading, and YOU SHOULD SHARE THIS WITH ALL OF YOUR FRIENDS AND FAMILY MEMBERS AND FACEBOOK FRIENDS.
The scam works like this:
Person calling says – ‘This is (name) and I’m calling from the Security and Fraud Department at VISA. My Badge number is 12460, your card has been flagged for an unusual purchase pattern, and I’m calling to verify. This would be on your VISA card which was issued by (name of bank). Did you purchase an Anti-Telemarketing Device for $497.99 from a marketing company based in Arizona?’ When you say ‘No’, the caller continues with, ‘Then we will be issuing a credit to your account. This is a company we have been watching, and the charges range from $297 to $497, just under the $500 purchase pattern that flags most cards. Before your next statement, the credit will be sent to (gives you your address). Is that correct?’ You say ‘yes’.
The caller continues – ‘I will be starting a Fraud Investigation. If you have any questions, you should call the 1- 800 number listed on the back of your card (1-800-VISA) and ask for Security. You will need to refer to this Control Number. The caller then gives you a 6 digit number. ‘Do you need me to read it again?’
Here’s the IMPORTANT part on how the scam works – The caller then says, ‘I need to verify you are in possession of your card’. He’ll ask you to ‘turn your card over and look for some numbers’. There are 7 numbers; the first 4 are part of your card number, the last 3 are the Security Numbers that verify you are the possessor of the card. These are the numbers you sometimes use to make Internet purchases to prove you have the card. The caller will ask you to read the last 3 numbers to him. After you tell the caller the 3 numbers, he’ll say, ‘That is correct, I just needed to verify that the card has not been lost or stolen, and that you still have your card. Do you have any other questions?’
After you say no, the caller then thanks you and states, ‘Don’t hesitate to call back if you do’, and hangs up. You actually say very little, and they never ask for or tell you the card number. But after we were called on Wednesday, we called back within 20 minutes to ask a question. We were glad we did! The REAL VISA Security Department told us it was a scam and in the last 15 minutes a new purchase of $497.99 was charged to our card. We made a real fraud report and closed the VISA account. VISA is reissuing us a new number.What the Scammer wants is the 3-digit PIN number on the back of the card. Don’t give it to them.Instead, tell them you’ll call VISA or Master Card directly for verification of their conversation.
NOTE: The real VISA and Mastercard security will NEVER ask for anything on the card as they already know the information since they issued the card. What is remarkable about this is that I just got a call where they used a word-for- word repeat of this scam. In my case , they told me that someone charged $3,097 for a plane ticket to Spain.
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Each day I awake before my feet touch the floor I thank God for his grace, for that I awake to share his word and for the abundant blessings he places before me. Every decision I make I pray for God to reveal what I don’t see as I continue to search for new ways to be a pleasure in his heart so that he may continue to bless me with the wisdom, strength and vulnerability to forever be his vessel to share his word with the everlasting love of Christ as my shelter and the Holy Ghost as my authentic power…